Another Monday Morning

Sigh! Yet another Monday morning! Another talk with boss! Again, a mood dampener. Nothing seems to be falling in place. On the contrary, everything is falling apart. Planned things go awry at the final moment. Responses that should be immediate are muted into ear-shattering silences.

What is worrying is the fact that no replies ever come to the applications that I send. Where am I going wrong? I do not have the slightest clue; I can correct something that is wrong. I cannot alter a thing that I do not have the vaguest idea about. It is like groping in carbon-black darkness for a support that may or maynot be there. Alas, this carbon is not producing any glittering diamond.

I have to get out of this country with a secure job somewhere. But, how?

Dil ki tasalli ke liye, jhooti chamak, jhoota nikhaar,
Jeevan toh soona hi raha, sab samjhi aayi hai bahaar,
Kaliyon se koi poochhta, hansti hai woh ya roti hai...

-Kaifi Azmi, in Anupama; Music: Hemant Kumar; Singer:Lata Mangeshkar